Can you fill this out without lying?
I’ll try

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
A Rainblow gumball

Can you play guitar hero?
Not at all

Name someone that made you laugh today?
Allan (while doing his Murphy impression)

How late did you stay up last night and why?
11:00 because I was uploading pictures to Facebook

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Nah, probably not

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
I don’t think so

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
Allan – we live in the same house!

Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
Yes! Shel!

How do you feel about Dr. Pepper?
Not a fan

When was the last time you cried really hard?
On Friday when my lip was busted open

Where are you right now?
Guest bedroom

What bed did you sleep in last night?

What was the last thing someone bought for you?
A (king size) Kit-Kat

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Allan and Murphy

Was yesterday better than today?
Yesterday was the weekend, today isn’t. Yesterday was better.

Can you live a day without TV?
Yeah, but I’d miss it

Are you mad about anything?
Happily, no

Are you upset about anything?
Just stressed about the dentisto

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Without a doubt

Are you a bad influence?
Not even close

Night out or night in?
Usually night in

What items could you not live without during the day?
Chapstick and the Interweb

Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Allan and his kidney stone!

What does the last text message in your inbox say?
Not a clue

How do you feel about your life right now?
I love it

Do you hate anyone?
Not at all

If we were to look in your facebook inbox, what would we find?
Lots of messages from Wendy

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
My grandpap thinks I’m perfect

What song is stuck in your head?
None right now, which is unusual

Someone knocks on your window at 2am, who do you want it to be?
No one!

Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?
Not going to happen

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Go to work

Do you think too much or too little?
Too much!

Do you smile a lot?
I did till my lip got busted. Now it hurts too much!

Who was your last missed call on your Mobile phone?
Jeff K.

Is there something you always wear?
My watch. And my engagement ring (insert huge smile HERE)

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Ordering wedding invitation samples

Did you have an exciting last weekend?
Yeah, took Murphy-Moo to the beach for the first time

Have you ever crawled through a window?

Have you ever dyed your hair?
All the freaking time!

Are you wearing a necklace?
Nope, not right now

Are you an emotional person?
Um, not sure how to answer this. I don’t get mad easily, but I get excited over little things.

Will this weekend be a good one?
I hope so! It’ll last for FOUR days!

What do you want right now?

Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
A sweatshirt or t-shirt or something

Have you ever worked in a food place?
Thankfully, no

Does anyone know your facebook password?
Yeah, at least two people have it

There’s a new Taylor Swift song and the lyrics remind me of Allan.

Dreaming bout the day when you’ll wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?

When I think about our interactions during that time, when he had feelings for me and didn’t say a word, didn’t pressure me into anything, didn’t make me feel uncomfortable – only made me feel like I had such a good friend – it makes me love him THAT MUCH more. And I already love him a ton, people, so loving him THAT MUCH more means the love I have for him is way off the charts. Which is good cause, you know, we’re getting married.

I wear the ring.

That’s the opening line of my favorite book, The Lords of Discipline, and for whatever reason, it just popped into my head. It’s been a while since I read the book. Too long, actually. But I get so absorbed in the characters and the story, it’s kind of emotionally wrenching every time I open the cover and I do so with caution. My heart breaks for the characters and, truth be told, I kind of fall in love with Will McLean every time I read the book. But, sshhh, don’t tell my fiance.

Tomorrow I’m making an appointment to see a dentist. It’s the dentist I had the last time I went, which was about five years ago. Although completely horrified at the thought, Dr. Barker’s the only dentist I’ve ever quasi trusted. She made me feel as safe as I’ll probably ever feel in one of those torture chairs. Plus she gave me drugs. Very strong drugs that caused retrograde amnesia.

I recently watched a 60 Minutes interview with Chris Martin, frontman of Coldplay and husband of Gwyneth Paltrow, and he said his dream is to write the perfect song. Well, I think he already did. It’s called Clocks.

Gotta love Wikipedia.

This is a rare Saturday evening post. I’m in the guest bedroom with Murphy asleep at my feet. The Fiance is at a friend’s – we were both invited, but because I’m sick, I encouraged him to go alone, which he reluctantly agreed to do. After I type this, I think Murph and I are going to lay on the couch and watch some DVRed Shark Week goodness. Most likely we’ll both be asleep within 15 minutes, especially if I take a Benadryl.

I’m having sinus issues and haven’t slept for the past two nights. I’m cranky and exhausted. For the first time ever, I used a nasal medicine spray thingy. It felt really weird. I’ve never had anything go UP my nose before. Other than a finger, of course.

After 28 years, Jason is still coming to my rescue. He cut his South Carolina vacation short by a night to come to Raleigh when he heard about the difficulties with our mother. He’s married, he planned a wedding, we share the same mother, so he knows what I’m going through and came to offer moral support.

I’m starting to enjoy my job and make friends at work, which I wanted to avoid. I wanted to stay as detached as possible because it’s coming to an end in December.

I have a dress. I have a veil. I have a bridal party. And I have the world’s most patient, supportive fiance. Everything else is up in the air. Aaaaahhhhh!

My parents were in town this weekend and I wanted to take advantage of their visit and go dress shopping with my mother. I didn’t actually expect to find The Dress, but I did. After about 18 inferior dresses, I slipped that bad boy on and knew it was the one for me. It’s ivory taffeta and it’s stunning. Gorgeous. I want to wear it every day. I also want to wear my veil every day. It only cost $10, people. Yay Craig’s List.

Things were rough with my mother. Without going into too much painful detail, she reminded me every chance she got that she is not pleased with my appearance. Not one gown elicited a positive response from her. I’m not a 5’4″ slender blond, you see, and for that I will never be forgiven or accepted.

The search for a venue is more stressful than I thought it would be. I figured I’d be sweating the small stuff, didn’t know I’d be sweating the big stuff, too. Places seem ideal and affordable until they are either seen in person, or until hidden costs are revealed. It’s almost like going to a surprise party with each surprise being unpleasant.

At the end of the day, though, I just want to be married to The Fiance. And he says he’ll marry me anywhere, even in a cardboard box down by the river.

As I’m typing this, there’s a diamond sparkling like crazy on my left ring finger. You know the significance of that finger, right? You know how you’re not supposed to wear any ring on that finger – especially a diamond ring – unless it’s either an engagement or wedding ring, right? Well, it just so happens that the sparkly diamond is an engagement ring given to me by The Fiance, someone I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with.

I’m almost 30 and I’ve never run across someone who so unabashedly makes me feel loved and cared for. I’ve never been as relaxed or as happy with anyone, and I’m truly, genuinely thankful to get to share my life with him. Shortly after we got engaged I said, “I get to keep you!” Internet, I get to keep him!!!

How he did it…

Well, I’m not exactly sure how the tradition started, but the first day of every month, which is our anniversary day, he gives me at least one prize from a gumball machine. On Friday I walked in the door, saw a gumball machine prize on the dining room table with a note underneath that said: Follow Me! So I followed the trail of gumball machine prizes, which led me up to our bedroom where The Fiance took a knee and asked me to marry him. It was simple, sweet and personal. In other words, it was perfect.

Now it’s time for the wedding planning to begin. YIKES!