I figure I may as well update this thing tonight because I’ve done so for the past two nights.

Jason had an interesting day of work yesterday – this morning, actually. At 6am 35 cars were broken into and Jason had to go door-to-door letting people know about their vehicles. Instead of being thankful for the information and his help, they were mad at him for waking them up!! Craziness.

Kristen came to seeee meeee today!! We went to the mall, did some shopping and some bear making, then we went to dinner at Bravo. We hoped to see Ben R. so that we could fight over him, but alas, no luck. It was fantastic to see her, though. She’s the coolest girl I’ve ever met – that’s why she’s my best friend! :-) It was so nice to be out of my house and away from my family for a while – I’ve been around no one except my family for almost two weeks.

I’m going back to Raleigh on Thursday and I really can’t wait. I’m longing to be back home like you wouldn’t believe.

I feel better today than I have in a long time. I’m coughing a bit, but other than that, just about all of my symptoms are gone. I’m happy to report that I need no Benadryl tonight! Wooo hooo!

Alrightie – time to jump in the shower and then into my bed I go!


I’m sitting here w/ a runny/stuffy nose, raw throat and earache among other things. But I feel guilty for wallowing in my self-pitty. As I’m typing this, I’m switching back and forth between this screen and photos of the disaster that occured in the Indian Ocean. How pathetic am I? As I’m blowing my nose and cursing a slow computer, there are people literally crawling along muddy streets searching for their loved ones who are most likely dead. My problems, as big as they seem to me, are so tiny compared to what other people are going through – not only right now – but all the time. Yeah, I’m in debt (as are 95% of all college grads), and yeah I’m now officially unemployed, but that’s such a small hill of beans compared to what other people are going through. Sigh.

My parents aren’t getting along. Lately, when my dad drinks, he gets a bit out of control and my mom’s fed up w/ it. Not that I can blame her, but it’s very strange to be in a house where your parents aren’t speaking to one another. I honestly don’t think my mom’s said a word to my dad all day. Gregory says he’ll kill someone if they get divorced, and although I wouldn’t be temped to that extreme, I’d be pretty devistated. I don’t think it’ll happen, though. They’ve been through much worse than this in the 26 years they’ve been married.

My mom asked that I go through my Aunt Natalie’s things to take anything I wanted. The only thing I took was a gray sweater, but it was hard to shuffle through those boxes. I came across several things that I had bought for her, and it reduced me to tears. For the first time it really hit me that my aunt is gone. I’m not going to hear her voice again, I’m not going to get another card or letter from her. I’ve been thinking about her a lot lately, which is natural I guess. She was such a life force, not easily forgotten.

Hmmm… what else is going on? Well, I just took another Benadryl tablet (am I spelling that right?) and am starting to get a bit sleeeeepy.

Jason’s first night as a police officer went well, although it left him quite tired. Because he’s working the night shift this week, he’s having a bit of difficulty getting used to the routine. But who can blame him? How does one go from being awake all day to being awake all night?? I couldn’t do it.

Ok, I’m going to take a HOT shower, call my darling Sherbert and then go to sleep.

Nightie night, y’all!


I’m sitting here w/ a slight ear ache. I’m wearing my huge – and incredibly comfortable – new Steelers sweatshirt that I got for Christmas from my parents. When I opened it, it was so nice that I didn’t think it was for me! I thought there was some sort of tag switcharoo and that the sweatshirt was for someone else. But no, it’s for me! My dad said that if I was going to go to a Steelers game in the dead of winter, I would need to be warm, and a big hoodie sweatshirt would keep me warm.

So, Christmas came and went. We spent Christmas Eve at my grandfather’s house surrounded by three generations of our family. It was really, really nice. I love when I get the chance to see my whole family – it doesn’t happen often and it makes me appreciate them all the more. Then my little family – sans Jason – opened our gifts around midnight. It was weird w/o Jason here. There was a large void where he was supposed to be. Tonight’s Jason’s first night as a police officer. He works from 11pm to 8am. I can’t even tell you how anxious I’ll be tomorrow morning to wake up and hear that everything went well w/ him. I called him just a little bit ago to wish him luck and stuff, and he reminded me that he’ll be in law enforcement – in some way, shape or form – for probably the next 30 years, and that I have to relax where he’s concerned because I can’t allow myself to worry all the time. Easier said than done, but he has a good point. He always has a good point.

I’m still sick. At my brilliant best friend’s suggestion, I’m going to take Benadryl tonight to knock my ass out. I hope it helps because I didn’t sleep well at all last night. I’m running on maybe five hours of sleep right now.

My dad and I went to the Steeler’s game this afternoon. I have mixed emotions about the it. My dad got BEYOND drunk and stupid and everything else, but the game itself was great and I’m really happy to have been there. Despite being less than 30 deg. all day, I was toasty warm! I had on two layers of long underwear – one of which was Army issued! – ice fishing boots, a down coat, a North Face fleece and, of course, my big, comfy new Steelers sweatshirt! I hope the Steelers go all the way to the Super Bowl. I don’t want to be too confidant about it because you never know what could happen, but they seem pretty damn unbeatable. The feeling in the stadium was electric today – I’ve never seen anything like it. The enthusiasm and excitement of over 65,000 people was trapped inside of massive concrete walls and it literally vibrated. It was pretty great.

Ok, I’m very tired and not writing well at all, so I’m going to sign off.

Later gators.


I feel like poo. I’ve been innundated by smoke, rapidly changing climates and … um … that’s about all – since coming home. I’ve also been in four states in three days. Washington, D.C., which isn’t really a state, but close enough. Ok, so I’ve been in D.C., Pennsylvania, Maryland and Deleware. Yes, I was in Deleware. What is there to do in Deleware, you ask? Well, we went there to get policeman boots for Jason. While there I also managed to get myself some peper spray for on my keychain. Niiiiice! I’ve been wanting to get some for a while, but I bet I’ll never have to use it. It’ll be nice to have, though.

Now I’m back in Pittsburgh and my whole family is getting ready to go to Bravo for dinner, but I don’t want to go because of the whole feeling like poo thing. I don’t know about you, but when I’m sick, I have no appetite. Bravo’s a good resturant, so when I go there, I hope to be able to eat a ton. I’m sure I’ll manage just fine, though…

Jason’s graduation ceremony was pretty nice. For the rest of my life – every single day – I will be worried about him. I will never stop being afraid for my brother. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. I know it’s what he wants to do and I know he’ll be happy doing nothing else, but I wish he would be happy as an accountant or an engineer or something safe like that. But, such is life and it’s HIS life. Sigh.

Ok, looks like we’re ready to go now. My mother has just come down the stairs in a pink Banana Republic sweater I bought her over the summer. One of the biggest treats of my life was taking my mother on a shopping spree, which I did over the summer, and that pink sweater is a fruit of that particular spree. The coat she has on now is also a result of the spree, and since she’s got her coat on, I’d better get my ass off of this laptop…


I give you this one thought to keep -
I am with you still – I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush,
I am the sweet uplifting rush,
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft starts that shine at night.
Do not think of me as gone -
I am with you still in each new dawn.


Tomorrow’s my last day at GSK and I’m really kinda depressed about it. I feel like I’ve worked really hard, gone to college, obtained my degree, etc… and after over a year of doing a job that I thoroughly enjoy, I’m being shown the door. I’ve always heard that if you work hard and do a good job, you’ll be rewarded. Apparently that’s not how the real world works.


Shel and I had our Christmas yesterday and not only did I get the bebe shirt I wanted, he also got me the SPA PACKAGE!!! Here’s what it includes:

The Blue Water Spa Signature Facial including our signature Facial Remodeling Massage, as well as a neck, shoulder, hand and arm massage. A steam and enzyme exfoliation, followed by a repairing masque and specialized anti-oxidant products, will hydrate, rejuvenate and give the skin a gorgeous glow.

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