Earlier today I was running errands for my mom and when I got into her car, I slammed my shin against the bottom of the dashboard and now I have a huge, swollen bruise. It’s so sore that it hurts even when I walk. It sucks.
I had a blast at the Steelers game! It was a much better experience than the last time I was there, because the last time the temp was in the 20′s and it was raining/snowing the whole time. I hate cold weather so badly!! But tonight it was in the mid 80′s w/ a nice breeze coming off of the Ohio. Pittsburgh looks so beautiful at dusk when the sun’s setting and all of the building lights are still shining. I really do love Pittsburgh, I think it’s a fantastic place and I’m very proud to call this place home. But, I don’t want to move back. I feel like I don’t quite belong here any more. My life is in Raleigh.
I’m really tired right now. I’ve been going non-stop since I got home. It’s a good thing, though. The other night I spent a lot of time w/ Dana, baby Jerry (who isn’t a baby any more!) and Cameron. I hadn’t seen them since I moved, which was well over a year ago. I was stunned that Jerry remembered me. But he did and jumped right into my arms when he saw me. He’s such a sweet little thing. I spent some quality time w/ Gregory today. I feel like I hardly know him any more, which makes me sad. We don’t talk much because he’s never around. Like, he’s never, ever at my parents’ house. He’s been here for maybe three hours since I’ve been home. He even sleeps at his girlfriend’s. I’ll be spending tomorrow afternoon w/ my grandma. At least we’ll be at IKEA, so it’ll be tolerable. Barely! Ha. After we get back, my mom and I are going to dinner at Chi-Chi’s so I can get some fried ice cream. They really need a Chi-Chi’s in Raleigh. On the Border’s a good mexican place, but they have no fried ice cream.
I feel better than I have in a long time. I completely fell apart. I lost all faith in myself and in the world around me. Shel and Laura tried to pick me up and put me back together, but I needed to get away from my life for a while in order to do it myself. Since I’ve been home I’ve been immersed in my family and in my past, which is incredibly comforting. I needed this so badly. We’ll see what happens when I get back to Raleigh, though. Hopefully I’ll be able to maintain a positive outlook on things and not get too depressed. I’m a little nervous about going back to Raleigh, actually. Keep your fingers crossed for me.
Shel, although he doesn’t always say the right thing, means well, and I appreciate it so much. There’s never a point when I’m w/ him when I don’t know how much he loves me, and that love kinda buoyies me up. Laura’s friendship has surprised me – I never expected she and I to become close, but I’m so glad we did because she’s a terrific person. Marty’s really losing out by not realizing how special she is.
Onto happier news! I get to see my Jason on Saturday!! I’m so excited! Since he’s jointed the Sprint family we talk a whole lot more than we used to, so it’ll be great to SEE him and talk to him at the same time!
Ok, my eyes are going funny because I’m so tired. I should have gone to bed like an hour ago. Oh well…