Yeah, that’s my baby. Haha.

Anyway. Nothing too exciting’s going on over here. Bob’s back, so there’s lots more chit-chat going on in the office, which I enjoy, but he’s also in my cube every 10 minutes, which I do not enjoy.

I want to go home today and get my life in order. I feel like for the past two months I’ve been living in complete disarray. My room’s a mess, I have to take care of getting Charlotte spayed, pack, etc… I have so much to do. I’d also like to spend as much time as humanly possible outside because the weather’s beautiful on a daily basis. I feel like I’m gaining millions of pounds, when, in actuality, it’s only like five. Special Olympics is picking up and, although I’m very looking forward to doing it, I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed. I got all of my papers organized this morning and made myself a chart on which I could keep track of my media contacts, etc… I need a day off from my life. Honestly, though, despite the craziness, I’m happy. :)

Since I found out that my aunt was going to die, I bought two cards. I have sent neither. The first one I at least wrote in. The second card is sitting in front of me right now. It’s a card made in London, so the paper’s different and nice. It’s light blue w/ a fairy flying around in a field of flowers. It’s got glitter all over it and says “Thinking of You”. Despite the glitter, it’s not tacky in any way. I have absolutely no clue what to write. At the core of who I am is a writer, and I’m looking at this blank card w/ no idea what to say.

Hello. Bob’s not here today, which has made for a spectacularly wonderful working environment. I know I’m being a little overly dramatic, but oh well. It’s plain old nice to not have him around.

I had a lovely weekend. On Friday night Shel and I went out to dinner and then to the movies. I felt like we were on a date and it was so nice! We held hands in the movie theatre – aaawww! The movies we went to were the cheapie seats ($1.50 admission), but it was still cool. And the movie, Two Weeks Notice, was really cute. I enjoyed it a lot. When we got back to my house, Alasyia was home alone and hungry, so we got her a Happy Meal from McDonald’s. Sally didn’t get in until 3:30am, which is weird, but I guess I can’t really say anything. It’s not my place.

Saturday was awesome because of the 75 degree weather!! Woo hoo! I’m a northern girl and totally used to blizzards hitting right around this time. I refused to stay indoors, so after rearranging the furniture in Shel’s room, we went to Pullen Park w/ Peter, Casey and Snickers. Snickers is Casey’s new puppy; she looks just like ToTo from The Wizard of Oz, weighs 3lbs and is the cutest little thing. Casey and Peter waked around w/ the puppy while Shel and I rode the merry-go-round. I love merry-go-rounds and swings. Very childish, I know. Then Casey and I roamed around Raleigh and Cary for a bit while our men slept and worked on computer programming (can you guess whom did which?). The four of us, plus Snickers, watched Unfaithful. It was a little too long, but the sex scenes were fun, and went to bed. I was very tired.

Yesterday I did a lot of work, added new stuff to my parents’ scrapbook and watched the Oscars. I started to pack this weekend because, although my move-date is over a month away, I’m so busy I need to get started or I’ll regret it. I talked to my mom for a while yesterday. I know I just saw her two weekends ago, but I miss her.

This is going to be rushed because I don’t have much time before I get to leave for the day – yay! I’ve been rather busy today, which is good because it made time fly by. I had an icky morning, but I visited Shel on my lunch break, cried a little and then felt better. I find that I tend to subconsciously sabotage myself, which I need to stop doing. I was terribly afraid because I’m so happy right now. Things are going so well for me. And I’m afraid that the most important thing of all, my relationship w/ Shel, was going to disappear. So, instead of being a rational, sane person, I had it in my head that he was going to leave me. I was thinking that I’d never have him to my new apartment, that we wouldn’t ever sit on my Ikea couch or hang out on my porch. I was really upset and I didn’t even realize what I was doing. I think I need to go back to therapy. It definitely couldn’t hurt.

My picks are doing so/so in the NCAA Tourney. I expected better, but NC State and Cincinnati let me down. Oh well. It’s only the first round.

I’m not crazy about this war thing. I don’t think I ever will be, but it’s happening and there’s nothing I can do about it. I totally support our troops, though. They’re such respectable people and I hope, maybe naively, that none of them get killed.

Uuummm… I guess that’s about all for now.

Howdy doo. I woke up this morning w/ a bit of a sore throat, but I drank some hot tea and it feels 100% better. Yay! I had a good time last night. Despite my offer to make Hamburger Helper, Shel decided to take us out to dinner. We went to Bear Rock Cafe because they have good cheesecake, but their sandwiches aren’t bad, either! Then I got some cake batter ice cream from Stone Cold Creamery. I love that stuff. It seriously tastes like frozen cake batter. It’s awesome. Anyway. Enough about food. I watched American Idol on Shel’s computer until Clay, the Raleigh guy, sang. Clay’s a skinny little dorky dude, but his voice is absolutely amazing and comes out of nowhere. I hope he wins. Maybe I’ll call and vote for him some time in the future. Hehe. Then I went home cause Shel was watching hockey in the living room and I was in his bedroom. Then, to be honest, I started feeling a bit uneasy because I was inadvertently reminded of Shel’s friends’ dislike of me. It makes me feel almost unworthy, if that makes any sense. Probably not.

When I got home I chatted w/ Miss Sara for a while (Gregory’s ex) – she’s such a bubbly girl! I like her a lot and I’m sorry it didn’t work out between she and my brother, but oh well. If it’s not meant to be, it’s not meant to be. She told me that she got new boobies, which shocked me because she had big boobs to begin w/ (that’s part of the reason Gregory dated her – haha). But she seems happy, so I’m happy for her. She wants to refer me to her surgeon so I can get mine done, but I’m thinking that’s not the route I want to take. I’d rather stick w/ the push-up bras! Haha. Also last night I heard from Brooks. I emailed him a little letter to say hi and I got a long letter in return. It was a pleasant surprise. He’s such a good guy.

Apparently Jason hasn’t used chew in over a week and credits me as his motivation. I’m thrilled! I hate the thought of anyone in my family using tobacco in any form; my grandma had lung problems and died as a result. She was a smoker. My grandfather died of lung cancer. He was a smoker. My other grandma has asthma and emphysema. She was a smoker and quit, thank goodness. My aunt has and is dying of cancer. She’s a smoker. There’s just no need for Jason or anyone else using anything that could more readily promote cancer. I’ll get off of my soapbox now…

Turns out Jason AND Gregory joined Shel’s bball pool as well as Marcus. I’m going to kick all their asses! HA! I’m feeling really competitive, so I wanted people I know to enter Shel’s pool. Plus the little graphs and stuff are pretty nifty.

Little man’s driving me absolutely nuts today, but I’m not going to write much more about it cause I’m at work.

Time to get lunch w/ Shel and Marcus!!